I’ve been here for two months as of today. whaaaaaaat
Taking a moment to step back and think about these past two months, I can hardly believe how amazing they have been. I am so incredibly happy. I can already see changes in myself. I have become much more positive and independent. I have started to recognize the more important things in life, and I can see beauty in simple things.
I had my first pulkolona (think prom but less twerking and more waltzing), I hiked another mountain, I went to Poland for a cooking competition (I cook?), I’ve failed more tests, learned more Czech, become closer to my classmates, and consumed a ton of pasta.
Yet, these two months have still brought challenges. I’ve struggled with budgeting and trying to raise money. I have had a hard time with my family (the one back home not my host family.) My home situation is fragile and has a very complex dynamic to say the least. The past year of my life was spent having to deal with it on a daily basis. I’m away from it for now. But I probably haven’t dealt with it in the right way. I can’t remember the last time I skyped my brother who I am very close to. I try to keep contact with my family to a minimum and what is said lacks emotion. I do miss them, but I don’t miss the complexity of daily life.
And then there are my friends back home. I can tell that I’m changing way more than they are already. I am much more positive, and I can tell that going back home is going to be hard. I care less about school and getting good grades, and more about living life and gaining experiences. They aren’t going to have the same mindset.
So, I don’t think about home that much because the thoughts tend to be negative right now. I miss my home sometimes, but I love this new one that I have adopted. I love walking around, going to coffee shops with friends, noticing something different every day. Even though learning the language is going very slowly, it’s still kind of a fun process. My friends make fun of me because I talk like a four year old, but I still think it’s an improvement. I am so excited to see what happens in the following months, and I cannot wait to share those experiences with you.